Fearless

Life is hard. There are so many choices, so many roads, so many ways to go. But there is also so much joy and happiness that can be found in every moment. Lately I've had to make some pretty interesting decisions. They aren't all made yet, but at least I made a dent. I paid $150 on my credit card today. That's a dent. Going along with this money stuff, I had a revelation on Sunday that I can't even think of moving forward with Danny until I get this debt paid off. That's not fair to him and it would cause a lot of unnecessary tension. So I have to hurry and get rid of it. May is my goal! I can do it! Speaking of Danny, what a cute, amazing, wonderful guy. I'm so stinkin' lucky. However, he's the main reason for all these choices I'm now having to make. I decided this week that I am going to graduate in August. What am I going to do in the fall you may ask? Well, I don't know either. I think tonight I will talk to Danny and just tell him, "Danny, I have some choices to make for my future. Do you want to be a part of those choices?" If it's a yes, we'll worry about that when it comes up. But if it's a no, adios my dear. I don't think it will be a no though. Today has been a "I want to make Melinda fat!" day. This morning I found a box of Strawberry Special-K on my shelf. He taped candy and notes all over it that said, "You are berry berry special to me!" Cute! And then when I was getting my backpack ready, I found a box of chocolates in it with a note saying, "You're so sweet!" The best so far is when I got to work. I came in and Aleks was really happy to see me. I looked on the counter and there was a ton of Valentine's stuff. I was like "Aleks, who gave you all of this?" She looked at me like I was stupid and then I realized that my name was on it. He left me a plate of cookies, a stuffed animal poopie (puppy), a bag of M&M's and a note. M: Magnificent, E: Entertaining, L: Linda (Spanish translation is pretty, beautiful), I: Intelligent, N: Nonchalant, D: Drop dead gorgeous, A: Awesome. Oh boy! He also left a bunch of paper cranes. It took me a little while to realize they were there because of his last name. I'm a quick one! Tonight we're going to dinner and then having some special dessert. He won't tell me because he doesn't want me to go home after the dinner...which is what I would normally do. Not really. So school is going well. I've been doing pretty well on tests, papers, and other assignments so far. I've also been studying probably more than I ever have. That's what you get when your boyfriend is a study fanatic. But that's a good thing. Oh, back to life being hard. It is hard, but I've learned that you just have to jump in and put all doubts aside. I know that God will watch over me and as long as I'm doing what I need to be doing, he will guide and direct me in little ways that I won't even be able to recognize. I just have to take that first step and lose all my doubts. Be fearless!

Happy Valentine's Day!